Why people feel the need to compete with how depressed I am lately. Seriously... does it make you feel better when you have to be so much more oh woe is me? How funny that when I told you how I felt, you miraculously felt the same way. You can't try to make me feel better... you just make things worse. I don't get it. I know you like the attention, and I hate it when it's in spite of me. I swear if you do something to fuck things up with him we won't be on speaking terms. I'm fucking sick of it. You can never be happy for me unless either you're in the same situation or doing or feeling something better... or worse it seems lately. I need a fucking vacation.
I can't do this anymore. This whole weekend has just sucked. Business sucks. Boys throw me off. I feel so useless lately. Haven't been stuck in a rut like this for a long time... I don't like it. It's scaring me. Dear Goddess help me... it's taking all the strength I have left to survive.
